Drowning…

I’ve been drowning a lot lately, constantly aware of my deepest emotions.

Going numb is no longer an option for me but the thought is tempting.

The shots have already been fired, filled me with holes that I cannot run away from.

When will this all end?

Is it when the darkness takes over?

Or is it when the light breaks free?

But if things get too complicated I’ll remember to take it slow, take time for myself and regroup.

There is nothing quite like self preservation, it’s simple and sweet.

However when sleep eludes me I endulge in the very thing that is slowly killing me.

For I am now constantly aware of my own mortality.

It gives me a unique perspective, like I know something everyone else seems to overlook.

My own little secret.

But this too shall pass, just like everything else before.

The light shall beckon me and I will be whole once again.

Not right now but some time in the future when everything is alright with the world and I can truly smile again.

That is what I think of when I am drowning.

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The Road Ahead

I find myself stagnant, unable to move

Not that I don’t want to move but my current predicament won’t let me

I usually get frustrated at this point but not this time

I feel as though I have been through too much to suddenly wither away into nothingness

Life was never meant to be roses and butterflies

That would be way to boring for me and boy do I live for the adventures of life

But don’t just take my word for it

Challenge yourself like never before and watch the beautiful events unfold before your very eyes
Live only to improve on yourself and never be the same person as yesterday but instead, be a better version of yourself everyday

Your Reckless Love…*

When I see you I see nothingness

Not to take you away from all your greatness

I find myself longing for completeness

Knowing full well all that you give me is hopelessness

I will come for you through the darkness

I will come for you through the bareness

Ready for all your love that comes with recklessness

But in the end, all I needed from you was togetherness.

“Mona…*”

Hello there,

So last night, I decided to write a chapter or two and then the thought occurred to me that I should change the entire storyline of the book.

It got me thinking and super excited because the novel has now turned into something more than I could have ever imagined, literally.

Prepare yourself for a whirlwind of emotions but don’t worry, you will not be alone in this because we are definitely all in this together and I will be the one to feel all these emotions way before any of you.

At this point, I am still building on the characters and their personalities so the story so far is a little bit sluggish but I promise you that it will improve with time as the events unfold.

Oh one thing you should know about me is that I am a sucker for a really good romance novel however I try to stay away from as much drama as possible when it comes to my reading conquests.

At the moment I am not reading anything but when I do get my hands on some good material, you my lovely readers will be the first to know and to add a sweetener, I will be posting from time to time a poem or two for your enjoyment and I will be expecting comments.

All sorts of negativity will not be tolerated, anyway good day to you all!!!