Financial Literacy

On the 24th of March 2018, four ZCAS students attended a sensitisation workshop focusing on pensions and insurance hosted by the Insurers Association of Zambia.

Even though we had learnt about pensions and insurance through our courses as students, we soon discovered that there was so much more we did not know.

To begin with, the Oxford Dictionary describes a pension as, “a regular payment made during a person’s retirement from an investment fund to which that person or their employer has contributed during their working life” which I think is the simplest way to describe what a pension is.

From everything that Mr Kamphata Botha the Chairman of Zambia Association of Pension Funds talked about, one thing that stuck with me is that it is never too early to have a pension scheme because the longer you have it the more comfortable your life will be after retirement.

Such simple words really struck a chord with me to the point where when I do graduate and eventually get a full time job, there will definitely be a percentage of my paycheck going to my pension scheme.

I also felt very embarrassed that such a thought never crossed my mind but then again, ignorance is bliss because even if I learnt about it in university, it never really crossed my mind as something I should really consider.

With that being said, I am now all about spreading financial literacy in my little circle which is my friends and family.

So if you have learnt anything through this blog post, do pass it on to a friend or a loved one because this can definitely change lives.

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Poetic Fridays

The Literature Corner, we have been in deep thought as to how to get more people interested in Zambian Literature and then it occurred to us, why not have a ‘Poetry Friday’ segment where we get to celebrate all things poetic about Zambia so here we go:

Today we want to celebrate someone who we refer to as an underground poet by the name of Tasha Mubanga (not her actual name) for obvious reasons but you get the gist of it.
We are going to showcase in the form of pictures some of her work so that you can get familiar with her and her style of poetry so feast your eyes to some guilty pleasure and do comment on what you think about her work thus far. We can all learn from some constructive criticism and grow.

Other than this, we have other pictures in store for you that remind us of the poetry that is Zambia:
There is this saying by I do not remember who but it goes something like you can find beauty anywhere that you look or in anything meaning that there is also beauty in Zambian Literature so here we go!
Here are some pictures of the Earth, the Zambian Earth to be more specific, do with it as you wish because there are only endless possibilities here and the sky is your only limit.
So let us indulge in the scenery before us or better yet, bask in it and let our creative juices take us over as we let our eyes be our guide.
Oh and a big thank you to Ucizi Ngulube and Tawonga Charles Bota for providing us with the breath-taking pictures.
If anything, these pictures can be used as writing prompts for either a story or our main focus here which is writing prompt.

In other news, CDI Zambia will be hosting the seventh ‘Tell Your Own Story Author’s Awards’ on the 7th of April 2018 with a range of different categories for one to enter that is, if you are interested in becoming a winner.

All of the much needed information on how to enter, the deadline, contest information, entry fee and any other updates on the awards ceremony and voting is available on their Facebook page, the UNZA Radio Facebook page and theagency.com website.

And lastly we will be hosting the first Book Swap of 2018 on the 24th of February 2018. Bring with you pen and paper and not forgetting a friend or two to join in on the fan and have the chance to interact with like-minded individuals.
All the information you will need is right there on the poster above so feel free to read through carefully and contact us on the number provided on our Facebook page (The Literature Corner) if you have any questions or queries for us.
Until next Friday!

The End Is Near

Yes the end is near, well the end of the year anyway.
If I have learnt anything this year it is that I have come a very long way and my resilience is next to none.

Just like every other year, it has been filled with ups and downs but such is life and one must take it with a grain of salt.

As always I have grown and changed for the better, well in my opinion anyway, (insert evil laugh here)

I should probably go on to talk about what my New year’s resolutions are but in all honesty I do not pay them that much attention but rather take things as they come.

I will say this though, I am very excited about the New year because I have so many exciting things planned for you.

Whenever my dream vision gets blurry I always seem to bounce back thanks to your neverending words of encouragement, which so happened to be the early hours of today.

My last words for the year would be that remember to be grateful in everything that you do because there are people out there hoping and praying for what you take foregranted.

Compliments of the season!

Adopting A Positive Mindset

For the month of November I decided to adopt a positive mindset, why you may ask, it is because I saw a post from my friend Lydia on Twitter where she filled up a jar with positive quotes and took it to work with her in order to spread some positivity at her work place.

So that got me thinking, why not have the same thing for a month but on my own and whatever the world throws at me, I’ll take it head on with a positive mindset.

I did not think much would happen in the first few days but on day five I got an offer to partner up with a digital magazine and I was completely floored.

It only took five days for my life to change and it was only the beginning.

On day fourteen my very supportive partner surprised me with a note pad in order for me to document my experience.

Yes it took me fourteen days to realise that I needed to write my experiences down before I forgot them all, ah the shame.

Day fifteen depression settled into my heart but I still soldiered on.

On day eighteen I got an offer to be the main speaker and facilitator of a writer’s workshop targeting schools in Lusaka.

Once again, I was over the moon thinking that oh yes this actually works.

Day nineteenth came by and I had completely forgotten that I had depressed for days.

Ah how times have changed but my heart still ached.

On day twenty six Poems From My Father asked to showcase my poetry book titled To My Daughters on their Facebook platform.

Oh yes my November definitely felt like a dream and I loved every minute of it.

So now fast forward to today and my month of positivity is over.

Yes I have learnt a lot and will definitely continue living my life with a positive mindset because I have done things in one month that could have taken me my entire lifetime.

So cheers to many more positive experiences.

Last Book Swap for The Year❤

So it was that time of the month again where literature lovers meet to enjoy all things literature.

What was different about this one was that it was the last book swap for the year.

Yes I know that it’s a month early but December is too jam packed that the book swap would unfortunately end up getting neglected.

So to avoid such a thing from happening, I decided to have it a month in advance.

No worries though because when January comes along, the book swaps will begin once again!

So enough of my blabbing and enjoy the visual aids below.

Oh before I forget I had the pleasure of partnering up with New Age Artists, it’s a digital magazine celebrating all forms of art in Zambia.

Meaning that big things will be happening in 2018 and it would be wise of you to watch this space! 

To My Daughters

I find this collection of poems to be very healing especially in times of complete darkness.

Enjoy!!!❤

THE DARKNESS CATCHES ME BEFORE I BREAK  

No longer running and no longer hiding, 

I choose to embrace the darkness, 

The thing that has slowly been consuming me whole, 

The thing that makes me feel nothing at all, 

What if this was meant to happen all along? 

What if the darkness was meant to consume me whole? 

What if I was never meant to feel nothing at all? 

Catch me before I break but for the lack of better terms,  

Do you remember the time that I told you that’s the last you’ll see of me? 

Do you remember the time I broke you down to tears? 

I know I let you down but there is you in everything I do. 

I’m so petrified that you will hurt me again that I let my fear guide me. 

But then again, I will never allow myself to hurt as much I did before. 

YOU TRIED  

Rough edges, roses and thorns, 

I feel as though I am screaming under water, 

There is always a floor I can fall through, 

My passion and my pain make me terrified of the dark, 

Someday I will no longer be a red and fragile rose, 

I know that I won’t grow in the dark alone, 

That is why,  

I need to find the light. 

The fire and hell that you put me through didn’t break me darling, 

I came out the other end an angel, 

The demons planted deep within me have nothing on me. 

They no longer own that kind of power over me. 

I don’t care how long it will take me, I’m going somewhere beautiful. 

It feels so good to be lost in the right direction. 

I don’t have a magic wand but I have hope, 

Hope that I will arrive to my death late, in love, and a little drunk. 

BABEL  

Speaking my truth I know that you’ve heard about me. 

 I spent all my nights and days, laid back day dreaming. 

Tell the world that I paint this Empire. 

And when I do it, I don’t look back. 

I walk with vengeance, completely focused because my mind is open. 

It took a while but now I understand just where I’m going. 

If you want to know who I am then it’s time that I show it. 

Its only nature that I live for danger because I am no longer trying to survive. 

I’ve dug my way out of blood and fire but it didn’t slow me down.  

Because look I’m still around.

BEAUTIFUL PROMISES KEPT  

Wide awake all I’ve ever known are the walls of my castle 

Laced with the magnificence of rich bold colours that will surely last forever 

One could get lost in the eerie feeling of never ending beauty 

So I employ you to forget it all 

Start anew like you were always somebody else to begin with 

A vibrant glow of perfection 

A naturally flawless beauty sprouts from within 

Now let’s embrace the change 

Revere it 

Indulge in it 

Experience it 

Embody it. 

GHOSTING BLISS  

Oh where do I begin?  

I was left to my devices,  

When I close my eyes it almost feels like nothing has changed. 

I am like a feather falling from the sky that is why freedom feels better. 

This adventure is only real to my eyes so may you steal hearts like mine. 

IN LIEU OF UNNECESSARY EXPLANATIONS  

As time would have it,  

I have recently become attracted to men of a certain artistic air to their manner of speech and character even though I have not yet met such a man before,  

I am still hopeful notwithstanding. 

PERSONA  

To be just enough was never an option for me. 

I’ve always wanted more for myself though sometimes it is slow going. 

However I still cling onto the fact that it will happen not at my time but at God’s time. 

That is why just enough is no longer an option for me. 

I don’t remember when but somehow along the way my view of the world changed so drastically that it called for my own personal change. 

Now that I look back I cannot recognise who I was before but I smile either way. 

I smile because I have changed for the better. 

Whether painfully, gradually or eagerly for still I have changed. 

SEVEN MINUTES  

I hope to arrive to my death, late, in love, and a little drunk.  

But then again, I hope there are days when you fall in love with being alive.  

So be brave my darling,  

You have faced dark times be fore and you’re still here now 

There are very few of us, who meet the one that is supposed to ignite a never ending fire within us,  

And even fewer of us who get to spend the rest of our lives with that one 

Let me photograph you in this light in case it is the last time that we might be exactly like we were before we realised that our love could not save you 

Creativity begins with an affinity for something 

It’s like falling in love . 

TELL ME SOMETHING DESPITE YOUR FEAR  

Some people are very adept at keeping their pain hidden, 

T hat’s why we are just strangers with memories.  

You taught me that trust is like glass,  

Once broken no matter how you put it back together,  

You can still see the cracks. 

UNBEKNOWNST TO US  

We say nothing more than we need because remember you’ve been mine.  

All I ask from you is perfect imperfections for I could hold you for a million years to make you feel my love 

Even with bricks to break my fall,  

I find myself choosing you over and over again.  

Your salty skin and how it mixes in with mine,  

The way it feels to be completely intertwined,  

Pink lips and blue/green eyes still ignite a fire within me like no one else. 

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY  

Bear with me though, 

I’ve only recently found my place in the world  

I’ve watched the morning rays multiple times  

But this time something’s different 

It is as though I have travelled in time 

To a place where the morning rays come with endless possibilities 

I don’t want to go back to the darkness 

Back to the sadness 

But the devil does try 

So all I can say is that I just want to be happy 

I keep on thinking of that voice in my head repeatedly saying that you are going to be okay 

So I’ll rise above the shit and keep on dancing. 

TAINTED OUR HEARTS  

I welcomed you into my world knowing full well that you could destroy it, 

I almost lost the love of my life because of you, 

When I look back at my decisions I become very disappointed in myself, 

I find it strange that I took my love for granted, 

Maybe with time I will forgive myself, 

Is there any rest for those who break hearts? 

I think not, 

We relish in the thought of being loved by a vast majority, 

But rarely fathom the pain we inflict on the ones we hurt, 

I’m sorry that I rui ned our love, 

I’m sorry that I sought out comfort in another, 

I’m sorry that I was not strong enough for the both of us, 

Looking back I now realise that I tainted our hearts, 

Pushed us to our worst with no end in sight, 

May God forgive our tainted hearts. 

WHEN WILL IT ALL END  

To the clouds, 

To the heart,  

To the sound of your soul, 

I hear it coming, 

The beating of your heart, 

Lord please intertwine my soul with his once again, 

I’m trying ever so desperately to forgive myself but it is a slow process, 

Did you know that sometimes the darkness seems so familiar? 

I find myself in new head spaces all the time, 

When did I forget the love? 

I wonder if this all ends in happiness or are we just wasting away? 

Ever falling, 

Always loving, 

Cannot seem to ease the pain, 

When will it all end? 

DANCE WITH ME  

You made me dance, 

I forgot myself in the rhythm of the music, 

Every movement I made felt as though lightening was coursing through my veins, 

I have never felt more content than this moment in time, 

So dance on my love, 

To the rhythm only meant for your ears, 

The slow movements mesmerise all as though my soul knew all along, 

Blend it in with the touch of another soul and you have a dance that will surpass the ages, 

The music never really ends, 

The melody will forever to be stuck on replay in my head, 

Let the footsteps fall as they may, 

Completely sporadic in its chaotic beauty, 

The best decision I made was to ask you to dance with me. 

A BUMP IN THE ROAD   

How you manage to speak to my soul is beyond me, 

How do you always know how to make me smile? 

With you I am always dancing, 

My dreams are filled with us laughing in the rain, 

Oh how I wish I could dream forever, 

If only I had met you sooner, 

With you sad times feel like a bump in the road, 

How could we ever go wrong? 

There will be tough times but with you by my side, 

What did I say again? 

It will feel like a bump in the road. 

WRITING MADNESS  

Sometimes I am able to quench the madness deep within me, 

Other times the madness completely consumes me, 

And yet I still write, 

For as long as I have air in my lunges, 

I will write, 

Even though it displeases you so I will still write, 

We were brought on this Earth to create our own form of magic, 

Find yours and thrive, 

For writing is my madness and I have nothing to apologise for. 

THE WORDS  

The words they come to me in a dream, 

The words they seduce me, 

The words they capture me, 

The words they titillate me, 

The words they consume me, 

The words they are who l am. 

MY HANDS  

My hands are the madness behind my magic, 

My hands are the paint brushes to my heart, 

My hands are my connection to the world, 

My hands are the light in my never-ending consumption of darkness. 

BEWARE OF THE GIANT GIRLS  

These girls know not what it means to be considered weak? 

These girls have fire and lightening coursing through their veins, 

These girls know exactly how to wield power, 

These girls know exactly where they are coming from and where they are going, 

These girls can paint the sky with just their aura, 

These girls are few and rare, 

These girls they come in pop packaging, 

These girls have bathed in the eternal elixir that is eternal beauty, 

These girls they come and go but are never forgotten, 

These girls, 

These girls are you. 

PLEASE EXPAIN  

You sound so sad in this one, 

Well you sound sad in some of them but somehow I can tell that this one is different, 

I’m pretty sure you don’t want to talk about it, 

But know that I will always be there for you, 

That’s because I worry about you, 

Did you have a chance to smile today? 

Don’t go shutting me out again, 

It took me forever to get you to trust me, 

I will always think that you are beautiful, 

Feel free to remember to love yourself, 

So please explain. 

THREE DEMONS AND THE DEVIL  

Awake I see things you can only see in your nightmares, 

I have seen too many demons to remember them all, 

These three though they keep on haunting me from time to time, 

How thankful I am that I have a guardian angel, 

I already know that the devil watches me sleep, 

But then again, 

If these flaws ever turned a different colour from black I would feel lost, 

They remind me of how I survived hell, 

Even the devil couldn’t contain me, 

God couldn’t let me go ju st like that, 

Even I don’t know the end game just yet, 

Constantly looking to the heavens for an answer, 

Ever optimistic that this battle between good and evil will finally end, YOUR SAD TEARS  

My heart wept when I first saw your sad tears, 

All I wanted to do was hold you close to my heart, 

Oh how I wish we were together that day, 

To see your sad tears confused me, 

For such a sad person you sure know how to hide your sad tears, 

I won’t let your soul dry, 

I love just how emotional you are, 

You make me believe that it is no sign of weakness to show vulnerability, 

Those are one of the things that I love most about you, 

So to see your sad tears confuses me, 

But most of all, 

 Your smile has me enamoured. 

Hopefully I will end up on the side of good. 

YOUR SAD TEARS  

My heart wept when I first saw your sad tears, 

All I wanted to do was hold you close to my heart, 

Oh how I wish we were together that day, 

To see your sad tears confused me, 

For such a sad person you sure know how to hide your sad tears, 

I won’t let your soul dry, 

I love just how emotional you are, 

You make me believe that it is no sign of weakness to show vulnerability, 

Those are one of the things that I love most about you, 

So to see your sad tears confuses me, 

But most of all, 

 Your smile has me enamoured. 

DYSFUNCTIONAL HEARTS THEY BLEED  

Dysfunctional hearts they bleed don’t they, 

We are the ones with all the scars, 

We are the ones who don’t know how to love, 

We are the ones with the most of lose, 

Oh how our dysfunctional hearts they bleed, 

The triggers they come and go, 

The memories though,  

They last forever, 

I don’t mind though, 

It gives me an interesting life story, 

Oh how our dysfunctional hearts they bleed. 

KIRA & KASHA  

I do think of you often, 

Weep for you often, 

I was so sure that I was going to meet you, 

Sometime in the distant future, 

Oh how wrong I was, 

In my dreams I have watched you grow, 

I apologise for being so weak, 

I could never be the mother that you would need, 

Please don’t hate me, 

This surely has been the hardest decision I have ever had to make, 

Even if we never meet I will forever love you, 

Now all that I know is that I will surely die with the two of you in my heart.

DEAR CAROL  

I apologise for constantly hurting you, 

I can still hear your screams in my head, 

You must understand that it had to be done, 

The darkness was too strong for either of us, 

You must understand that I did it to save you, 

If one of us was to be completely ck8onsumed I chose myself over you, 

I could no longer stand to hear you scream out in pain, 

I do miss you though, 

I could never forget our times together, 

When I do remember I always smile, 

To me you are like an angel, 

Because I will blindly follow your soul. 

GOD  

You humble me with your never ending love for me, 

I am in constant awe of you, 

Oh how I do not deserve such unconditional love, 

Keep me safe from you know who, 

For I am knackered from all the back and forth that we have done over the years, 

Our relationship has been so fulfilling, 

Even in times of doubt I still love you wholly, 

I get emotional just thinking about you, 

I really am in love with you. 

MOIST LIPS  

My lips were covered with the wet blueprint of your moist lips, 

A blank space of bright new colours like potions of an endless opus, 

I almost die, 

You are the only artist that can make my earth quake,  

When I first heard you time slowed to a stop, 

I knew my life would never be the same because I had finally found you, 

The one, 

The first boy that I would ever love 

DARK & BLEAK  

Dark and bleak, 

The world she no longer speaks, 

To survive my world you must no longer speak, 

Drenched in blood we are no longer meek, 

For we are what they call the warriors of Mauizi, 

This was the end for them, 

We watched the flames climb high into the sky and they did burn, 

We watched the auburn flames burn bright hollowing their souls, 

The smell of blood was thick in the air because of the billow and breeze and the dead they were gone.

THE ANCIENT ONE  

They refer to me as death, 

Because everywhere I go there is bloodshed, 

Oh how I long to taste fresh blood on my tongue, 

It gives me a thrill like no other, 

I fear the day when this will no longer excite me, 

A day in which all I feel is emptiness, 

Oh how I long to go on killing forever, 

May my thirst for blood never be quenched. 

SUNRISE 

The wide array of colours speaks for themselves as they canvas the morning sky.  

It is almost strange that right before every sunrise, the sky becomes pitch black before the magic begins to happen. 

There is nothing quite like a sunrise and each one magnificently different from the next but just as breath taking and this one is no different. 

THE END OF US  

I only wanted to have fun, I let my heart decide the way, deep down I must have always known that all the little letters in my head and all the darker instruments inside my head could not save me from feeling like a failure because I know that I failed you. 

I was calling out for help but heard no noise because I was a pretty liar, I know I should have fought it but at least I’m being honest. 

I’ve learned more from what is missing; it is about me and not about you. I know that I’ve made some bad decisions that is why daylight is much too hard because I feel you so near. 

Perfect storms and rose gardens filled with thorns make me angry at all the things that I cannot change because when we were young we were reckless and took things way too far. 

The secrets you told me I’ll take to my grave and your nightmares make me forg ive it all. Deep in my bones I can feel you that my heart was a stone but your hands warm because the feeling of your skin is locked in my head. 

I know I’m not the only one who regrets the things that they have done because I was so desperate to find a way out of my world and finally breath, and you are not here to dry my tears. 

We have been here before but I cannot stay this time because we are oceans apart and there is so much space between us. 

You must not underestimate that I am trying to be brave. It means the world to me that you were in my life but I must learn to live and survive on my own because everything changed me and I do not think that you can save me this time. 

GOODBYE  

I was calling out for help but heard no noise, only the sound of my heart breaking, if only you and your arms could save me. 

Only love will make us ache, this world isn’t exactly what my heart expected, trying to find my place because I spend some days asleep. You are always on my mind and all my love is lost within you. 

I love these walls where our home never changes, where we can talk like there’s something to say but you are no longer here. Words were all we had so we kept on talking, I don’t play by the rules of the game or so you said but I was just trying. 

I’ve made a wrong turn once or twice; I’ve dug my way out of blood and fire, but your death forced me to give in. Lovers hold on to everything and anything, I am lost trying to get found in an ocean of people. 

There is you in everything I do because once upon a time you were my everything that is why we live in ruins of the palace within my dreams. 

I used to be so happy but without you here I feel so lost, I watched you as the light from your eyes slowly faded into nothingness and you died in my arms. 

It’s buried deep inside me and I will never forget you because you will always be by my side. From the day that I met you, I knew that I would love you until the end of time. 

Every night I close my eyes, I see your face and I’m wide awake and when we said our last goodbyes, I was the one who said that I hope you stay because in my heart I will always be sure. 

I know these scars will bleed because I still look for your face in the crowd. 

OH HOW I LOVE YOU  

Something inside me has changed; you know just what to say. I could hold you for a million years to make you feel my love. I’ve known it from the moment that we met, no doubt in my mind where you belong. 

You’ve got a piece of me, I know that I’ve got issues but your pretty messed up too. Either way I found out that I’m nothing without you. 

I thought I knew myself somehow you know me more, I’ve never known this never before, I don’t know who I would be if I didn’t know you. 

There is you in everything I do, because all I need is the love that you give me. 

It is only when I look into your eyes that my senses ignite and I feel alive. You love unconditionally that is why you steal hearts like mine perfectly. 

For as long as I can remember we collide, mesh and intertwine. That is why this adventure is real in our eyes. 

I never knew that I could feel like this, it is like I have never seen the sky before. I want to vanish inside your kiss, every day I am loving you more and more. 

Listen to my heart can you hear it sing, come back to me and forgive everything. Seasons may change winter to spring; I love you to the end of time. 

My heart is a valley filled with your love that is why it’s in my soul; it’s in my veins and in my blood. 

I’m amazed by the things that you would sacrifice just to be with me. That’s why in dark times I look to you to find the bright side. 

I MOURNED  

I mourned for me, 

Mourned for who I used to be, 

Was saddened by my sudden change, 

Devastated that I saw the world in a new light, 

Lost my childlike naivety, 

For I am nothing like before, 

Changed my stripes completely, 

No longer mourning for who I was, 

Greater, 

Stronger than before, 

Always evolving, 

Ever changing, 

Hoping that I have been wrong  

THE BOX  

Did we ever change? 

I don’t seem to remember these days, 

I like to think that I will be able to inspire at least one person before I die, 

The box feels so irrelevant these days, 

How did I not know that I was conforming? 

Conforming to an ideology that would later on disgust me, 

The box looks so different from the outside, 

Worn out, 

With holes everywhere, 

Not fit for human habitation, 

Why then do we still conform to the box? 

Does it please you so to be limited? 

Does it please you so to stifle others? 

Look within for your answers, 

For even box dwellers have a little bit of a rebel in them, 

So fight on, 

But most importantly, 

Get out of the box. 

MY CROWN  

My crown, 

Why did I ever hate you? 

Who taught me to hate you? 

I apologise for my self-loathing, 

Wishing to be someone I’m not, 

I can change you all I want but at the end of the day it’s just you and me, 

Forgive my foolishness, 

It took me a good 22 years to finally love you, 

Take proper care of you, 

Cherish you, 

Feed you, 

And finally embrace you fully,  

There is no going back for me, 

The only way now is to move forward with my new found love. 

OUR TIME  

Our time is now, 

Our time has come, 

Let the future fall in place, 

We are still winning, 

Because our only enemy is us, 

We are like a living prophecy, 

For we have just begun, 

As we watch the morning, 

Let the change come while we are young. 

SUPERMAN  

How long to do plan on waiting for someone to save you? 

Just how long? 

Decide to pick up the cap from the floor, 

Be your own type of superman, 

Be something beautiful, 

That is the gift and not a curse, 

Don’t forget to dance, 

Ask stupid questions, 

Keep your eyes to the sky, 

Just live and rise, 

Most importantly, 

Be your own type of superman. 

MY JOURNEY  

My journey felt so pointless at some point, 

I felt as though I was drowning in a sea of uncertainty, 

Then came my God, 

He taught me how to love myself again, 

How to trust Him again, 

How to believe in myself again, 

And most importantly how to persevere, 

In times of darkness You were there, 

In times of light You were there, 

It is only through my God that I am still alive, 

Depression could not take hold of me forever, 

My God had and still has greater plans for me, 

So I sit back and enjoy the flight, 

Why? 

Because my journey has only begun, 

And my God is my co-pilot. 

ALIVE BUT NOT KICKING  

That dream that has been in the back of your head is still alive, 

That dream it never really dies, 

It just sits there and waits, 

Waits for you to either attain it or waste away, 

It won’t push you but simply nag you, 

That dream it never really dies, 

Even when given up it is still alive, 

Even when forgotten it is still alive, 

Alive but not kicking, 

Just simply waiting, 

Waiting for you to acknowledge it, 

Waiting for you to finally accept it, 

Waiting for you to pursue it, 

For it will simply nag you, 

You can choose to forget it, 

Push it back, 

Neglect it, 

But it will keep on being alive but not kicking. 

REGRET NOTHING  

Let ’s just say regret nothing, 

No matter what you did or didn’t do, 

Regret nothing, 

Live for the moment, 

Enjoy the experiences, 

Learn from your mistakes, 

Move on, 

Enjoy life, 

Love somebody or something, 

Laugh out loud, 

Be happy, 

Find your magic, 

Sing that song, 

Dance to the rhythm of the night, 

And most importantly regret nothing. 

PULL THE TRIGGER  

All is fair in love and war, 

Or so they say, 

If you are going to play then play for keeps,  

You are terrified so take a deep breath, 

It will calm you, 

Say a prayer if you so wish, 

I know that he has never lost, 

He is never going to leave you, 

But think about the value of your life, 

This is not a test, 

Close your eyes if you must, 

And pull the trigger. 

LIFE ALONE  

I don’t have much to give, 

I don’t have direction, 

Do you know how it feels to fall behind? 

I know this life alone, 

I tried my best, 

I let you down, 

I enjoy the empty road, 

It’s over so don’t look back, 

I’m reaching a fever pitch, 

I’ll leave with every piece of you. 

I won’t come back. 

BEATING DRUM  

Beating drum, 

We both know that I’ve heard of you, 

You started a fire within my heart, 

You had my heart at first strike, 

I can see you clearly, 

Because you brought me out of the darkness, 

You turn my sorrow away, 

I do not underestimate the power that you hold, 

I think of you in the depths of my despair, 

It leaves me breathless, 

Beating drum, 

You have my heart. 

DROWN  

I thought I told you to stand beside the river I cried and drown, 

I fell short each time, 

I did crumble, 

I did crawl, 

I did stand by you, 

You were the wise one, 

I was the child, 

You were like a bomb before explosion, 

You were so proud with your charm, 

Do not overestimate just how much I need you, 

Now I know that I settled for less, 

So stand beside the river I cried and drown. 

SMOKE IN OUR LUNGS  

I have found a new sense of freedom, 

Well once the initial changes were done, 

Completely renewed and ready for the next challenge, 

Not saddened by the death of the old me, 

Though I will think of her fondly, 

With a smile on my face as I look back, 

Oh how the times have changed, 

I found my heart in the end, 

Healed my soul, 

I hadn’t realised that she had come back until just now, 

Man did I miss you, 

It feels good to be whole again, 

Like smoke in our lungs. 

NEW HORIZONES  

Fresh new horizons that attract new things, 

How amazing you are to try something new, 

It feels nice and fresh like a new summer, 

It is there to keep you warm in your transformation, 

You have your new skin now, 

So be very sweet, 

Very strong, 

And very confident, 

Why? 

Because life comes with changes, 

Sometimes they are good and sometimes they are bad, 

So in order to stay ahead you must be a champion of change, 

Always remember that everything is a hot commodity and can easily disappear, 

So be up for the challenge, 

Be sharp, 

And own it as you take control of your rebirth. 

FAMILIAR  

Everything became the same, 

You became complacent along with it, 

I became disenchanted, 

Lost my love for the world and lost love in general, 

It is times like this that you make me feel the most alone, 

The most hollow, 

That is why I revert, 

Revert back to the heartless human being I once was, 

How is it that you can flip my switch so easily? 

One minute you make me a believer of the power of love, 

In the next you make me feel nothing at all, 

These are the days I wish that I never fell for you, 

That way your love wouldn’t be so f amiliar. 

FLEETING FEELINGS  

For as quickly as they came,  

That is just as quickly as they went, 

These feelings are fleeting that is why I do not trust them, 

For they cannot last for even a minute, 

I do try to relish them while they last, 

As I will need them later on when things feel so dark, 

It is a shame though that they do not last longer, 

It would have been great just standing there in my white dress full of glee, 

But now I understand that it was not meant to be, 

That such things were never meant for me, 

And even though I sometimes long for them, 

I know better than to dwell on them 

It only brings me great sadness and I no longer entertain negative thoughts. 

ENAMOURED  

I came to you in a dream,  

You witnessed my birth, 

Watched me grow into a beautiful woman, 

You were enamoured by all of me, 

For everything I did fascinated you, 

You were so engrossed in me that you failed to be wary of those around you, 

It was as though I had put a spell on you, 

I knew that when you first led eyes on me that I was yours, 

I knew better than to put you down and hurt you, 

I knew that I was yours, 

Destined to be by your side until death separated us, 

You loved me and I was your downfall, 

For you could not stand to be apart from me, 

It drove you wild and as the sword pierced through your heart, 

I was the last thing that you saw before you took your last breath and died.