You have been on my mind for quite some time now, though I must admit that I may not have given you the thought process that you truely deserved.
Regardless, you have been born and the world knows of your birth.
Let the positivity shine through and take us on a new journey together.
I was thinking of doing a poem to address my sadness and depression but I have been putting it off for what two months now?
So why don’t we start from the beginning, I am sick. It’s as simple as that. The doctors don’t know what’s wrong with me which is not exactly helping me fight off my depression.
I’ve been holding in the bad thoughts for so long because I’ve got school and exams to pass.
So as you can see now is not the time to have a mental breakdown but then again when really is the right time to have a mental breakdown?
Anyway let’s move on, I’m usually great at dealing with such situations but this one has me completely floored that I don’t even know where to begin with on how to help myself.
I’ve always been great at handling my depression but this one takes the cake and I’m not sure if I will be able to survive it because no amount of positive affirmation will pull me out of this black hole.
I’m knackered from being strong all the time, even I need moments of weakness to cry but at the same time I don’t want to talk about it or anyone’s pity for I find it disgusting.
I feel as though my talent as been taken away from me for no apparent reason, well to me anyway. How am I expected to go on when I can no longer do what I was brought on this Earth to do?
So many questions and yet no answers, this is why I disappear for hours on end just so that I can wallow in self-pity just for a little while before I pull myself back up and continue this journey that is life.
In short I have decided to do a one month positivity quote post challenge on my Facebook Page and Twitter Account so that I can get my positive juices flowing, hoping that something beautiful comes out of it.
So last night, I decided to write a chapter or two and then the thought occurred to me that I should change the entire storyline of the book.
It got me thinking and super excited because the novel has now turned into something more than I could have ever imagined, literally.
Prepare yourself for a whirlwind of emotions but don’t worry, you will not be alone in this because we are definitely all in this together and I will be the one to feel all these emotions way before any of you.
At this point, I am still building on the characters and their personalities so the story so far is a little bit sluggish but I promise you that it will improve with time as the events unfold.
Oh one thing you should know about me is that I am a sucker for a really good romance novel however I try to stay away from as much drama as possible when it comes to my reading conquests.
At the moment I am not reading anything but when I do get my hands on some good material, you my lovely readers will be the first to know and to add a sweetener, I will be posting from time to time a poem or two for your enjoyment and I will be expecting comments.
All sorts of negativity will not be tolerated, anyway good day to you all!!!